Quite literally if I can say.
I have been an acute nail-biter for as long as I can remember. I was, perhaps, born with this vice. I cant remember when it was that I started chewing my nails first. My mother, whenever asked, would say the same. It is a habit that I have not been particularly proud of, yet never been able to shirk off completely.
And it is something I have always been associated with. My family has resorted to all possible means in hope of getting me rid of this habit. I have been scolded umpteen times( I still do), got flicked by my parents on numerous occasions of chewing my nails like a mouse, ridiculed by my school mates to the point that every day as I enter my class there would be a small piece of nail placed on my desk, just so I could see it and feel disgusted enough to quit the habit. But all in vain.
I remember quite vividly how as a mere 7 or 8 year old or maybe a year here and there, I had once very earnestly attempted to chew my toe nails after chewing off all of my hand nails!
Now, of course the toe nails don’t attract me much, but my hand nails…..
I have still not been able to get rid of the vice. It’s not that I have not tried. The last I tried hard was some 13 years back, around my wedding. I was successful in keeping my nails away from my mouth for a month or so, only to switch back to my old chewy self!
Today again, I am driven to get rid of this nasty habit of mine, all thanks to this wonderful group I am a part of on Facebook.
Indiblogeshwaris, a page created by fellow blogger Vinita who blogs by the name of BlogwatiG, is a thriving group comprising of only women bloggers. As the tagline says, it is a group for
women of tough stance
, where everything and anything under the sun is discussed, without any prejudices, or hang-ups or fleeting judgments. It is a group where women are let be. The only rule, per se, here is not to plug in our own blog posts.
And today, the group is turning one.
As a part of celebration a fun challenge, aptly themed, The Elusive One, was thrown at us exactly one month back where we were to pick that one thing we had always wanted to do or get rid of, and actually make it happen. And of course share about it all on the anniversary day.
I thought of this as a good opportunity to get rid of my nail biting habit, mainly because I noticed, to my horror that Namnam had begun to chew her nails too lately. So to make her stop it was important that I stopped first.
So here I am, all sober for the last one month…and trying to maintain it further
I’ll admit that it has not been easy to keep away from it completely, in fact I did occasionally end up chewing only to withdraw immediately when I remembered the challenge I had taken up.
Nonetheless it feels nice to realize that I could stay true to the resolution I had taken for myself.
I am not sure how far I can fight the urge to bite again, but I know for sure that I feel really good about curbing it for my daughter’s sake, for my own sake. And I hope I am able to maintain it from now on.
To give you an idea how my nails looked at the start of the month..
And how it looks now..
I can hear you laugh!!
Indiblogeshwaris, thank you so much for driving me towards taking this step! If not for this challenge I wouldn’t have even thought of testing my resistance level!
Now c’mon lets have another challenge to help me keep this zest alive and keep me from biting my nails ever!
On a serious note, heres wishing each and every member of this group a very Happy First! Vinita, to thank you especially for creating such a lovely haven for us women!
Here’s to you, here’s to us, here’s to Indiblogeshwaris!