From the time I learnt I was to be a mother,I loved every prospect of being one.I remember how worthless and incomplete I would feel when I could not conceive and my friends would discuss amongst themselves about their experiences as a mother and their virtues of being one.Whereas I would just be listening to them,cringing from inside at not being able to contribute anything from my end.
When I was puking day in and day out with morning sickness,getting endless aversions to chinese food,noodles,pasta and the likes,one corner of my heart was revelling in the fact that I was getting to experience this phase which I so wanted to.When I got the first kick from my baby within,it was as though to reiterate how connected we were to each other.And then when she sprang out of me and was placed on my chest I knew this was going to be one joyous ride for the mother-daughter duo.
Much before Namnam was born,I had decided that I’ll quit my job to be fully accessible to my child.I will not deter to say that as much as I wanted to be there for my daughter on a more regular basis,I took the decision to stay at home to also,be a part of her growing up at every stage.So,from her first smile,to the first time she giggled,to the first time she turned to her side,to the first time she crawled,to the first time she sat up,to the time she stood up unaided for the first time,to the time she took her first few steps,to the first time she scribbled on the wall,to the first time she said “AMMA”,to the time when she started combining words and eventually rattle off in full sentences,I have treasured each and every moment.To this day,I don’t regret the decision of quitting my job.This is the most important role that I have donned in my life and the one that truly identifies me.
Now you’d wonder,’is this so smooth a sail’?And I’d say,’Nope’.Being a mom has its flip sides too.I get challenged every time my daughter falls sick or hurts herself and cries her heart out.I remember how miserable and guilty I felt when she fell off her bed the first time when she was barely 5months old(yes,GM,me too).To make it even worse,I was warned by my many been-there-done-that-mommy friends that this was just the beginning!I died a thousand deaths when my precious little got her febrile convulsion when she was just 10months old.As a result every time she gets even a slight fever my heart skips a beat.Thankfully we’ve managed to keep it on check ever since.Hence no relapses.
I’m further tested to keep my control when she makes a mess of the house just when I’ve cleaned up or when she spills milk on her dress right when we are about to go out or scribbles endlessly on the walls despite my pleas and scoldings or just defies me pointblank simply because she wants to have her way.
Then when I’m all red-faced with frustration,with all my weapons down,at times even questioning myself as a mother,she runs to me to give me a hug and a kiss,calming me down instantly.And I realize I can take up any challenge for this unconditional love of my daughter.
By now,you’d have realised how my life is woven around Namnam.So,imagine my predicament,when I got tagged by VJ & Goofy Mumma to list down 5 things that I love about being a mom!I love everything about being a mom.In fact most of my posts as a blogger have been about my wonderful journey and experiences as a mother.How could I dwindle them down to 5?However,as is the rule,I’ll just list them down at random.Thanks a ton VJ & Goofy Mumma for tagging me with this wonderful theme.Here is my take…
1.I love when Namnam places her undaunting trust on me.She knows I’ll not fail her ever and I’ll always be there for her.All she needs to do is call out to me ‘AMMAAA’. Oh how I love that!
2.I love how being a mother has changed me as a person.I have become more tolerant,patient,sensitive and forgiving.
3.It makes me jubilant to think,that for my daughter,I’m the most important person in life.I know it may not stay that way for ever,but I’m cherishing every moment of that honour now.
4.I love how motherhood has infused a sense of protectiveness towards my daughter to the extent that I don’t shirk from indulging in any kind of altercation with anyone if it hampers with my child’s safety and well-being
5.Finally I love the respect and warmth that I get when I am with my child.Its as though people put you in a different pedestal when they know you’re a mother.I love that empowerment!!
The tag is aimed at reaching out to other mommy-bloggers around the world in 80 clicks.Since VJ & Goofy Mumma have already tagged some of the blogger-moms that I have wanted to,I reach out to the few others that I would like to tag