Yes,today was the day.The day Namnam treaded on a new path to independence.The day I was eagerly waiting for,yet dreading to face.The day I let my sweet little get out of my long embrace so she could learn to be on her own.The day I hated myself for doing that as I realized that the long embrace was now going to be replaced by brief ones which she may or may not feel the need for as she grew wiser.
After a lot of running around and scrounging through the net for that one right choice,R & I zeroed in on a particular school based on hygiene,teacher-student ratio,proximity to our house & R’s office,flexibility with time and a few other criteria.More importantly,out of the few schools that we went to,this was the one that Namnam was most receptive towards.She had even memorized the name ever since and it was invariably a part of her conversation.Which made us believe that she loved the feel and looked forward to her stint.So we decided to send her for a summer programme first on a trial basis for one month.If,in time she took to her new surroundings well,we would enroll her for the proper session.
So,today,R & I took her to the school at 8 in the morning.I went to her classroom to drop her off.I was a bit nervous and anxious thinking about how she would react.For a fleeting second,she was clingy,but when she saw other kids and her teacher welcoming her with smiling faces she was comfortable in no time.She was given a drawing sheet to colour on and she was at home!
When the administrator assured me that they would call me if there was a need or if she was restless,I returned from the school,only to come to an empty house with my own sound echoing all around.I was so used to her bringing the roof down with her constant rattling and screaming and rallying around that the sudden silence was reverberating.On one end I was happy that I didnt receive any alert call from the school and on the other I was selfishly flinching at the thought that she was being managed without my help.The four hours away from her seemed like eternity to me.
At 12,R & I went to pick her back.She was sleeping when we got there.Apparently she did cry and ask for me.But the school could manage her and she was fine after a while.
So,today,has been a big day for Namnam.Although I know it will take me a while to come to terms with the new routine in my life,I have no doubt that she will be adjusting to her new surroundings,making new friends and holding her own,in no time.And I’m so proud of her for having ushered in this new chapter in her life.
“Namnam,from now on,Amma & Papa may not be with you always,but God will be,darling.And may He help you keep all your obstacles at bay and make the right decisions in life”
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God bless… your kid cried… thats your certificate your a good parent… my kid went happily and didnt want to come back… lol…
D: Aww Hriday is a darling,Hitchy. Thanks heaps for that huge morale-boost,though 😆 .
god bless the lil one… !!!! 🙂 Touchwood !!
D: Thank you so much,Dhiren.Means a lot 🙂
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LOL Hitchy ..u n ur comments 😛
D: He is a riot,aint he?? 😀
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I agree with Hitchy:) My daughter runs into the nursery as if it were paradise – does not even wait for me to say bye 😦
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hey bhagwaan! I KNEW Dhiren would say this 😀
he still cant get over how Hriday didn’t miss home at all 😀
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D: 😆
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O didn’t shed a tear when she went to playschool. but when i had to put her in regular school for KG2, she was a little scared by the ‘school’ atmosphere and uniform, she wept. can’t get over that even now.
D: I can imagine. I do hope Namnam finds all her further levels as interesting 🙂
am sure N is gonna have a ball. After all she will have her ‘dwaling’ to do. now we have to see how D can be kept occupied during the day ;P
D: 😆 . Yes,I sure am going to need some pampering.You’d better have some real nice ways to keep me occupied…a spa would do,just to give you an idea 😉
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Congrats at last u found a good school!!
Oh the picture said it all…thanks foe capturing the lovely moment and sharing with us. When she’ll grow up..u can show her this picture of her first step towards the real and new world.
Now time will run away from her n she has to run after it…i wish her all the best in life, n hope she is successful in whatever she does and her parents are always there to guide the lovely angel.
D: Thank you so much for the wishes 🙂
Is she wearing a sunglass in the pic i think so…i should say she’ll really be a style icon in her group…lol!!!
D: LOL@ style icon! Its very very hot here,Nazish,and you cant leave your house without either your glasses or Hat.And Namnam insists she wear her glasses 😀
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All the best for Namnam and I know more than her you need the wishes and get well soon…Sigh! It took me so many days to get accustomed to the feeling of not being near my son 24X7 and broke my heart to see that he was quiet happy to leave me all alone to go to school..
D: Its such a relief to know I’m not alone in this selfish-mummy world,Saksh 😀
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Hi Deep,
Here from Sol’s blog. Enjoyed reading this post, because I could identify with it. Loved this line… ‘on the I was selfishly flinching at the thought that she was being managed without my help’ – utterly honest 🙂
Cheers.. Pal
D: Welcome to my space,Pal and thank you for the kind words. I consider this space of mine a confession arena,you know.Hence the selfish line 😀 😀
Hitchy – ROFL at your comment :-)))
-http://writerzblock.wordpress.com/
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Hey Deepti,
I really got emotional reading your post, I had gone through all this a few years back and it really tears the heart apart when you have to leave your kid and go back home. I was more upset and cranky than my daughter and now a two years down the line I will have to go through this again..
Put in a brave front Girl… God Bless ..
D: Thank you for those reassuring words,Rekha. I’m sure you will handle it when your time comes,much better than I did,since you have already been there,done that once 😉
rekha
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I completely understand.. VK started childcare 3 weeks ago and we are taking it one day at a time .. he still cries when we drop him… it shatters me to see him cry but once I walk out of the room, he is perfectly fine and has fun through the day..
all I can say is be brave and she will be fine.
D: Vk has already started going to nursery? Thats wonderful,VJ. May God bless him Lots of kisses to him 🙂
And thank you so much for those reassuring words.I need them 🙂
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Hey Deeps! That ending note is so beautiful 🙂
Hugs for that!
D: Hugs to you too,Sweetie 🙂
N now for the lil Namnam, lotz of flying kisses 🙂
He sweet of her 🙂
May she hv a brightttttt future ahead!
D: Thank u so so much.Kisses duly passed on 🙂
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AWWWWW deeps!!!!! HUGS!!!!
D: YAYYYYYYY Crafty is back!! (((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))
she is growing up….snifff
don’t mind me, i am illogically senti about other ppl’s kids growing up……
but all the best to sweetheart namnam! she will do great! she settled in soon! that’s just great to hear…
D: Awwww thanks sooooo much,Sweetie 🙂
erm…deeps, don’t mention that to my mom ever….
i had wailed the school down and the teacher had to feed me my food in between sniffles and “i want my amma”
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D: 😆 😆
so namnam is a dream kid! so confident and ready to go and explore!
ur last para! AMEN! that’s just awesome deeps…she will grow up to be very very proud of her parents, i’m sure
D: Awww..I dont know if she will be proud of us,but I do sincerely hope her faith and trust in us never shirk,Crafty 🙂
Crafty aunty wishes namnam to have loads of fun in whatever she does….and may she always smile and conquer all that she sets out to do.
God Bless Her!
hugs n muahs!
Namnam: Thank you,Craftyauntie fr the loving wishes. hugs & muahs to you too 🙂
and tight hugs to mommy deeps, letting her little angel go out and grow up….
D: Thanks again,Sweetheart.tight tight hugs to you too 🙂
come, we’ll eat some ice cream, okies?
*crafty fetches a big choco ice cream tub and two BIG spoons*
*Deeps grabs both the icecream tub and the spoons with both her hands and digs in without sharing with Crafty and gives a choco-splashed umma to her*
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**sob sob***
Swaram finds Crafty wherever she goes except on …… 😛 n Pixie says the same too ROFL :))
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arre swaram my sweetie…i was going alphabetically on my blog roll! 😛 😛
now i will begin from descending order, okies??
😀 😀
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Okie .. my blog name is ASwaram from now on 😛
Will it suffice ya AASwaram karna hai 😉
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she will be fine…Deeps u don’t worry…
Both Kav and N cried for a week but settled down comfortably after that…
But N is still ready to bunk school at the drop of a hat…she is plain lazy and for me even though she is five plus still a baby…
D: LOL..Oh the mischievous N! Ummas to her tto 🙂
Thank you so much,Sindhu. Your words were very comforting 🙂
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Full session from the first day itself? by the way your kid is going to hate, Thu and Fridays ( or it is Fri day and sat)
The next big moment can be , when you send her ( min age 5) to India alone as an unaccompanied passenger..
D: Yes,I’m waiting for that day.It will be a huge turning point,no doubt 🙂
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Kids grow up so soon na?
D: at the blink of an eye,Masood 😀 !
I fear the day when I have to leave my baby at a nursery or school. I mean, we get so used to seeing them around us that the thought that they will be away, even if for a couple of hours, is saddening. But then, this is important for them. For their future. For their lives.
D: So true. Ultimately its for their own good. I’m sure you will handle the situation in a much better way. And,your son will have a rollicking time when he starts his school 🙂
Major milestone for your daughter. Amen to your closing wishes. May life shower the best on her always 🙂
D: Thank you so very much,Masood.
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Very heartfelt post and U have written the truth..all parents feel the same:)..about the kids I love the lines written by Kahlil Zibran..have put it on my blog also…something like they come from you, but you dont own them…..
D: Yes I remember reading those lines in your blog. The lines hold so true. One day we have to our precious ones go and make their own mark. We just cant hold on to them.
Thank you for your comforting words,Renu 🙂
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I don’t get these kids! How can you want to go and compete for the teachers attention with 30 other kids? And homework and other nonsense man I hate school I cried till 5th std and I cry even now. I just understand how kids like school blegh.
D: you cried till 5th std?? Wow thats some respite! 😀
Ur kid will do great. You need some retail therapy!!
D: Thank you,SJ! I’m on my way to splurge BTW,isnt that the first step in retail therapy?? 😀
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Awww…hugs Deeps. You need it more than cutie pie Nammu. Now that kid is smart and confident. 🙂
D: Oh yes I sure do,Sols! Hugs back to you 🙂
Look at her walk. That fashionista! She is ready to go out and conquer this world.
D: Ha Ha Ha! Sols,Namnam would have come running to give you a tight hug and kisses if she had known what fashionista meant :D! She is in that phase where she is in total love with dressing up,,donning my dupatta over her head, making her hair,wearing matching sandals.And mind you,in this scorching heat she has to wear socks too because they match with her dress…phew!!
Deeps, I know the feeling but just wait for couple more days and you will be so happy to see her chirping about this new world she just explored. Also, it is us who are dependent on them. 🙂 They need their space. Ha..ha..ha..
D: I didnt even realize how time just flew past,Solilo. I feel I’m still not through having her hold on to me or more apt would be to say,holding on to her !
All the best to Nammu and lot of ummas.
D: Thank you so much 🙂
(Now tell me what that peda means.)
D: Ok,now since you are here,you’ve saved yourself from one.Its normally administered on those who get too comfy on their couches to hop over to their friends’ abodes for some tet-a-tete 😀
Instead let me offer you an Agra-ka-Peda that you were so craving for… now,drool drool 😀
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aww Namnam looks quite the Diva – matching shoes and bags,not to mention the sun glares! 🙂
D: Ha Ha Ha! She is a real drama 😀
I`m sure she and you will be just fine. Here`s wishing you lots of luck for the long journey ahead. Hugs to both of you, my friend.. 🙂
D: Thank you so much,Mish. It means a lot to me. ((((HUGS))))
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So the first day is over and looks like the Mom was able to make the change smoothly enough. Kids of course make the change easily, sometimes with a bit of screaming and crying (like my younger one). Its generally the mothers who go all misty-eyed and senti about it.
D: You know Shail,just by mentioning that I was able to make the change smoothly,you’ve boosted my morale!! I knew I’d miss her terribly when she was away.But those four hours felt like eternity.
During my time, I was so looking forward to those three hours of solitude that I did not even realise how time had flown by the time FB returned home. 😛 Really, I seem to be a really meanie Mom. Lol.
D: Oh no,you’re not a meanie mom,Shail. Dont know about other moms,but I sure do learn quite a bit from the way you conduct yourself. Believe me on this 🙂
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The photograph of Namnam holding her dad’s hands and getting ready to step out into the huge outside world is symbolic! Nice one.
She is going to be happy there, Deepti. All the best to her. God bless you and your family!
D: Thank you very much for your wishes,Sandhya 🙂
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so how was the first day at school?
me wants a sequel now!!
D: the first day was good,Rush.Like I mentioned,Namnam played and sketched for a while and then when she didnt see me around,cried a bit,But she was well managed by her teacher.The second day was better.It was the day for waterplay,so she had lots of fun splashing in water 🙂
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After reading ur post i felt the same way i felt few years back leaving my kid at school for the first time.And she didn’t cry at all,but when we were coming home she started crying that she want to be in the class,she doesn’t want to come home as there is a devil at home 😉
D: Ha Ha Ha…devil at home??? 😆
Namnam,from now on,Amma & Papa may not be with you always,but God will be,darling.And may He help you keep all your obstacles at bay and make the right decisions in life”—– So sweet,wonderufully written,hugs to namnam 🙂
D: Thank you,Saritha 🙂 ((((HUGS))))
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Congratulations to Namnam!
D: Thank you 🙂
One little step of today is the precursor of tomorrow’s giant leap.
Yes parents are “like this only”… the very thought of letting the child go out of sight makes us nervous.
I wish all the junior schools had waiting rooms for guardians
D: LOL..if the playschools had had a waiting room,Suman,then I guess they would have had to recruit double the staff to attend to the many whining,wailing parents too 😆
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Ohhh this event always has its mixed feelings..I was so sad the day my daughter first went to school and unhappy like a jealous partner that she was so happy without my company..but Deeps always know the kids will need us..whatever they have or dont, how ever many friends or foes..we are their anchor!!
D: Awww,thank you,Sujata.What you said certainly did make me feel a lot better 🙂
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ding dong !!
busy ??
D: WOW! What a coincidence..I just got back commenting from your page and here I see your ding-dong 😀
Not really busy,re…just lazing around 🙂
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I know how you felt the first day. I had gone thru this experience not once but twice.
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Brought back memories, yes this is heart breaking … hugs! She’ll do fine, so will you!! This is the beginning, now on they will only be growing more and more independent…
D: Thank you so much,IHM for the hugs and those comforting words 🙂
((((HUGS))) 🙂
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The photograph is adorabe!! I agree with the comments above, she is a fashionista indeed 🙂
D: *Kisses from Namnam* 🙂
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🙂 God bless your kid..My daughter too is about to be enrolled..I am looking forward for that day,happily,yet tensed…
D: Thank you,Nimmy :).I’m sure your daughter will have a wonderful time. good luck to you and all the best wishes to her 🙂
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Hi Deeps-your post made me nostalgic about the time I dropped my daughter to play school and I hung around wanting to pick her up at the earliest and feeling strange about going back to a silent home….
D: Glad you could understand what I went through and am going through this phase,hypermom. Thank you 🙂
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umma umma and lots of umma to my molutty and my nammuttan! dont know y but this post of urs choked me in tears da.thankfully i didnt have the pangs when u and ragz were sent to school…..u know i was with u allthru till u ppl passed out…though then it seemed wonderful.. lately i realised u ppl wud have prefered otherwise. well…everything has its good and bad points..alle? ummma …ktpdch umma to u and nammu
D: Thank you,ma and hugs and ummmmmmmas to you too from Namnam & me 🙂
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Deeps, I came here, but my connection gave up while I was submitting my comment 😦
D: Thats ok,sweetie,you did came back,thats what matters,na 🙂
Hugs to you and Namnam! She is one confident lil girl! Look at her running in anticipation! I can imagine what you went through.. I went through all that a few weeks ago..
D: ((((HUGS)))) to you too 🙂
You certainly need the hugs more than her:)
But they enjoy it so much – that it is all worth it! Today, Poohi was a bit under the weather.. on the way to the nursery, she threw up – and was heart broken when I brought her back home.. She kept insisting that she is totally fine 🙂
It just makes me happy to see how much she loves the nursery.. am sure you feel the same way too..
D: Yes,I do,Smitha.As much as I feel sad about her not being as clingy to me as before,I’m proud of her for managing herself so well 🙂
Hugs and ummas to Namnam mol! She is out to conquer the world 🙂 Loved the way you ended.. so true..
D: thank you,Smits.Hugs & ummmas to Poohimol too for her baking-vidyarambham 😀
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(((((hugs)) for Namnam’s mom first of all becasue like I said on Smitha’ s post about Poohi.. looks like Mommy needs it more 😀
((hugs)))) Deeps:)
D: Thank you,Abhi! ((((HUGS)))) to you too 🙂
Namnam cried? 😦
D: Yes,for a brief period.Although she was fine when I left.It was only later that I got to know that when she didnt find me around,she cried. And then she was well managed by her teacher.
oh! Poohi and Hirday didnt cry and there those two were wondering about that..and here it is a different case..
D: Ha Ha Ha
I am not a parent but I can say confidently after knowing you she will grow more confident and sure of herself:)
after all your daughter na?:)
D: this is what friends are for,nahi??to boost the morale just when you’re in dire need of it! Thanks a ton,Abhi…muah muah 🙂
the photo is too cute ..and Solilo is right..look at the little fashionista’s cute walk 😀
ah! what confidence! 😀
muahhs for Namnam and a huge bear hug!! 🙂
“Namnam,from now on,Amma & Papa may not be with you always,but God will be,darling.And may He help you keep all your obstacles at bay and make the right decisions in life”
amen to all of this Deeps:)
will be looking forward to reading about namnam as she grows older and takes bolder ,more confident steps in life
D: Thank you so much for those words,Abhi
((((hugs))))))
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oh! Poohi and Hriday didnt cry and there those two were wondering about that..and here it is a different case..
by those two I mean Smitha and Dhiren
D: I understood,re 😀
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