Yes,today was the day.The day Namnam treaded on a new path to independence.The day I was eagerly waiting for,yet dreading to face.The day I let my sweet little get out of my long embrace so she could learn to be on her own.The day I hated myself for doing that as I realized that the long embrace was now going to be replaced by brief ones which she may or may not feel the need for as she grew wiser.
After a lot of running around and scrounging through the net for that one right choice,R & I zeroed in on a particular school based on hygiene,teacher-student ratio,proximity to our house & R’s office,flexibility with time and a few other criteria.More importantly,out of the few schools that we went to,this was the one that Namnam was most receptive towards.She had even memorized the name ever since and it was invariably a part of her conversation.Which made us believe that she loved the feel and looked forward to her stint.So we decided to send her for a summer programme first on a trial basis for one month.If,in time she took to her new surroundings well,we would enroll her for the proper session.
So,today,R & I took her to the school at 8 in the morning.I went to her classroom to drop her off.I was a bit nervous and anxious thinking about how she would react.For a fleeting second,she was clingy,but when she saw other kids and her teacher welcoming her with smiling faces she was comfortable in no time.She was given a drawing sheet to colour on and she was at home!
When the administrator assured me that they would call me if there was a need or if she was restless,I returned from the school,only to come to an empty house with my own sound echoing all around.I was so used to her bringing the roof down with her constant rattling and screaming and rallying around that the sudden silence was reverberating.On one end I was happy that I didnt receive any alert call from the school and on the other I was selfishly flinching at the thought that she was being managed without my help.The four hours away from her seemed like eternity to me.
At 12,R & I went to pick her back.She was sleeping when we got there.Apparently she did cry and ask for me.But the school could manage her and she was fine after a while.
So,today,has been a big day for Namnam.Although I know it will take me a while to come to terms with the new routine in my life,I have no doubt that she will be adjusting to her new surroundings,making new friends and holding her own,in no time.And I’m so proud of her for having ushered in this new chapter in her life.
“Namnam,from now on,Amma & Papa may not be with you always,but God will be,darling.And may He help you keep all your obstacles at bay and make the right decisions in life”